After Dad

When I think of how couples can be so cruel to one another just before turning out the light and falling asleep, and how many keep a loaded firearm in the bedroom, I’m terrified by the increased chance that one of those guns will find its way into a mouth that’s about to fall asleep in one.

Resentment dances through our homes and attaches to our children. Everybody knows this on some level.

It’s why, every day after work I come home to an empty house and take a shower and imagine the water falling through me and taking me along with it, so that anything I might want to hold onto and pull back on won’t be able to hold onto me.

Sometimes I even feel like I’m air, and that my clothes, when I put them back on, are hanging on a sea breeze,

and don’t get me wrong, I like that technique.

But that’s how I know I have to bounce off that armor too, in order to finally be free of resentment.

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